"Tree Spirit" and Thoughts on Duality

"Tree Spirit" by Primal Painter

So I was thinking (oh no, not that again) about that short-lived phase I went through about two weeks ago where I seemed to be tapping into the energy of the trees.  The post I made during that phase was a little "out there", I have to admit.....but the energy was interesting......and pure......and flowing....full of swirls and shapes and colors and light....totally non-verbal or mental.....and at a very high vibe.  I liked it.  It was very far removed from human energy, though.  

 I crashed and burned after holding that vibe for only a short time.  Blew a fuse! Short circuited! Then I came tumbling, tumbling, tumbling down and landed flat on my back looking around going "What the....?!"   Apparently I'm not to a point where I can sustain that pure of a vibe.  Bummer maaann!!

Those trees, I tell ya, they got it goin' on!   No worries, no words, no thoughts....just being......the essence of the "I am". 

I made this energy art print "Tree Spirit" during that phase.  It was created from a photo of trees on my property, and I warped and twisted and morphed and pulled out a tree spirit.  She's pretty, isn't she.  I'm very drawn to this image.  Her face has a hard line through the center of it, with light green on one side and dark green on the other.  I take that to mean there's an element of duality in there somewhere.  Probably because I, a human, have that duality, that element of light and dark, and I've projected that quality into the image.  


Maybe there's nothing wrong with having that level of duality, maybe it's just the human condition, or maybe it runs through everything even trees.   I doubt that, though.  The energy of the trees felt very simple, pure,  and unconfusing for the short amount of time I was able to hold it.


I think duality is part of being human though.  There's the dark side and there's the light side.  For some people, the dark side might only entail a little self-indulgence in say, Dove Dark Chocolate, even though it triggers migraines.  Or maybe the dark side is more emotional and when, say, someone in our life behaves badly, we get caught up in their drama and have mean thoughts about them.  What a crock!  Who am I? Judge and Jury?  Since when?  Since alwaayyss!  Geeze.  Trees don't do that!  A lesson to learn.....


Part of it has to do with holding onto things....(I think).  The tendency to take an old experience and the emotions it generated, and projecting  them onto a new experience even though they don't really fit....(but I'll make it fit, by Gawd!  It's all about me, me, MEEEEE).


Then I ran across this daily channeled message by Dyan Garris that seemed to sum things up nicely.  I don't know who this Dyan Garris chick is, but she comes up with some relevant sh*t!




Daily Channeled Message® by Dyan Garris

Today's energy asks that we examine the concept of narcissism. Is there something that makes you think someone is thinking about you 30 years later? Is there something that makes you think that whatever is happening is all about you? Or perhaps it is that you know someone like this. When we are self focused like this, we find that we have trouble getting rid of old patterns, stuck energy that gets stuck not in the craw, as one may think, but in the root. And the root is where we create. The root feeds the plant. If we can't get over the past, then we effectively block our ability to bring in any new energy whatsoever. If you're still pouring weed killer - or even water - on a plant that is long since dead, it may not even occur to you to stop doing that and spend the twenty five cents for a new bag of seeds. 



Dang, girl, that's good!  I'll have too look her up and insert a link somewhere.


Ok, that's enough blah blah blah for today.  


(What's with the weirdness of the font and the highlighted stuff?)  Mercury Retrograde still in action, no doubt.  Eh, whatev.....


Later,


Laurie

Abstract Art, Auras and Energy

"Third Eye Open" by Primal Painter

So I got to thinking about how energy, my energy in particular, is tied into what's happening in the immediate environment.  I noticed earlier that my energy, my auric energy, seems to be very tied to nature. The trees dropping their leaves in order to preserve their energy and then re-directing their energy into the root system seems to be so symbolic of what's happening to me right now.

It seems that with energy healing, there are things, emotions, thoughts, and identities that start to shed and drop away...like leaves.....like an alter ego.....like a false self......like a low vibing flawed human with fear and judgment running the show.  I don't really believe that I'll ever reach the status of unflawed human, but I think my goal will be to become a higher vibing less flawed human! How would I say that though if I were to sit down and make out a specific intention?

Speaking of specific intentions, I wonder how important those are?  When we put our intentions down into words, doesn't that mean that we're trying to take control, and ultimately, isn't releasing control the end goal? I mean, I know that what we think is what we are, but what if the goal was to transcend literal thought and enter the realm of pure high vibing energy with the freedom of accepting what is and flowing with the twists and turns, the ups and downs...like a graceful dance. Like a willow tree blowing in the wind.  If I were I tree, I'd want to be a willow tree..bending and flowing, twirling and curling, long hair, like a goddess.  Willow trees are the yoga goddesses of the tree world. lol

I noticed that I haven't done any energy art digital paintings lately, and I think maybe it's because I got into being too specific with the intention...too literal, too controlling with not enough pure flow, not enough interpretive abstract.  I enjoy it when it's more free-flowing and less pressured to perform the intention. I mean, what do I know? For all I know, the intentions I set might be totally off, timing wise.  Something else might need to happen first that I don't even know about. I think the intention needs to be more open, less controlling and energetically higher and finer, more like something that's completely beyond the five senses,  more like light and movement, a higher vibe.  Then, when the imagery is finished, it'll be subject to individual interpretation based on what the viewer needs in order to acheive a higher vibration.

I think it comes down to this: "My intention is to be a a clear and open energetically artistic channel for light, love, and healing for the highest good of all. "  Then step back and let it happen, let it flow.

Maybe I'll do one right now and see what happens.....

3 hours later:

Hehee, fun! .  My first impressions are of an abstract aura, chakras and the meridians.  The aura is the energy field that surrounds us and connects us to our surroundings and the Source,  the chakras are the vortexes of energy that pull in the energy that the aura has collected, and the meridians spread that energy around the body through a weblike network. The moon and the sun are both present in this one. I would say that we need to be aware that we are significantly influenced by the activities of both the sun and the moon.  Strong gravitational pull, solar flares, coronal masses, magnetic fluctuations, all of these things can affect our brain chemistry and the physical aspects of the human body.  What to do about it? I would say that being aware of these things is the first step, then make a concentrated effort to allow those energies to flow through us, transmuting into an energy that balances and raises the vibe.  Make ourselves into a light source that emanates in every direction, reaching around the planet, even around the universe, and see light streaming in through our aura and crown, magnifying, then spreading out through a web that connects everything and everyone. We transmute the negative and turn it into the positive. We take it in but we don't own it, we infuse it with the light and the love that comes from the Source and pass it on through.

So I can talk the talk but now I'll have to see if I can walk the walk.

Wow, that's some deep sh*t..lol

Later,

Laurie.

Vibes of Spring

"Growth" by primalpainter

This is a shot I took yesterday of a blossom on my almond tree.  I was going to leave it "normal", but I just can't seem to resist twisting and warping and spiraling it into abstract energy art.  It's pretty cool, I guess, but I still like the more psychedelic abstract images with wild colors better.  It's starting to become clear to me that not everyone shares my taste in wild, loud visuals..lol  Anyway, this is the best I can do at keeping it conservative at this point.

I've been into bold wild colors since junior high at least.  When I was younger than that, I had posters of horses on my walls (we had 12 horses), then I discovered the wonderful world of blacklight posters, blacklights, and other trippy special effect lighting.  Now keep in mind, this was way before I even knew what the word trippy actually implied, so apparently my visual tastes are just my natural state.

"Gentle Touch of Angels"

This one is a shot of a pear tree blossom.  It's kind of pretty, soft and romantic.  I wonder if my taste will evolve into something more...mature?  Maybe, but I doubt it knowing me, although I might do some softer versions of abstract art just to experiment.

I was reading a blog yesterday where a website guru was analyzing someone's site, and he said that the only thing this person's site would do for him if he were to buy one of their products was to give him some exercise as he carried it to the trash.  I thought that was harsh.  His closing advice was that people need to create products that the public wants, not create products that you like to create.

I can see the wisdom in that for a commercially run business, but what about artists?  It would seem to me that as an artist, it would be important to stay true to yourself and create what appeals to your own visual and emotional taste.  If you don't do that, then wouldn't that be selling out? 

Don't get me wrong, I've certainly done that in the past, and while it was more profitable to design for the public, ultimately it's not fulfilling and even feels fake.  As an artist, I think it's really important to stay true to yourself and find the niche of buyers that have the same kind of taste.  Although, finding those people that have the same taste as me might be like finding a needle in a haystack...I dunno....lol

Well I'm off to enjoy another nice day!  This is my favorite time of year.....watching the flowers grow and bloom, hearing the birds chirping and the frogs chirping....  watching the trees green up.....love it!

Later,

Laurie

Aftermath of Destruction

NOOOOOOOOO.........

The last couple of days I've been in the ole' "stay in bed and cover up my head" funk, thanks to Carroll Electric coming into my yard and butchering my trees.  Sometimes being sensitive and empathic has it's downfalls as I have a tendency to feel the pain and angst of everyone and everything, even trees. This was even worse than the Great Ice Storm of 2009 because of the added element of feeling victimized at the hands of a giant unfeeling profit-driven power hungry corporation, namely CARROLL ELECTRIC CO-OP (co-op my ass). 

Trees have a very smooth and pure vibration while the gi-normous buzz saw the electric company used to shred them was jolting and obnoxious, disturbing and violent.  I'm pulling out of it, though. They spared my almond tree on the condition that I transplant it, which is going to be a real trick at 12' tall.  It's a dwarf almond and shouldn't get any bigger than 15' to 18' but they don't care.

What's done is done, so it's time to snap out of my self-imposed disconnection from a world that seems  bent on so-called progress (greedy, profit driven, power-hungry progress) while disrespecting and sacrificing nature.  I'll start thinking about what I'm going to plant in those ravaged areas of destruction.  Maybe pampass grass or evergreen red-tipped photinia.

I was thinking the other day that some wicked firethorn bushes would give those electric guys some nice little pricks..... little pricks for some big pricks.....Ha!  That's just a fantasy, though...an evil satisfying fantasy where the firethorns come to life and pull the head honcho electric guy into a tangled maze of stabbing little pricks (how appropriate), while I look on and laugh...Bwah hahahhaha!!!!!  Wow, that's  mean of me, must be my dark side.

This picture makes me think of the TreeHerders  (the Ents) in the Lord of the Rings when they see the destruction and stumps of their fellow trees.  I like to think of the orbs in the foreground as healing orbs.

This  was my sassafras grove.  I've lived here for 11 years, they were here then, and when they cut them down, they were about 12 feet tall.  Not exactly a threat to the electric line and wouldn't be for another several years.   Why, WHY????

On the bright side, ironically while the giant buzz saw from hell was here the other day, I sold a wall sculpture called "Renewal".  Is that a sign or what?!  Pretty cool I thought.

I also finished my third chakra painting called "Fearless" and listed it on Etsy yesterday. It's already been featured in a treasury! I'll do a post on it later.....

See ya,

Laurie

Electric Company Bullies

Today the electric company is supposed to come by and ravage the trees on my property. I thought maybe I should go out there and confront them with anger and intimidation, but when I told my friends of my plan, they exchanged these sideways glances, snickered, snorted, there was even some rolling of the eyes..   My boyfriend laughed outloud.  I'm like "Wha-at?"  Apparently my attempts at anger and intimidation are more along the lines of the kitten in this video. : (   From inside my head, I think I seem really mean and ferocious, but from the outside looking in.....not so much I guess.

You know, I like electricity and all, but this destroying everything that's 10 ft. on either side of the line is B.S.  For the lines that go through the forest, I can understand it, but this line is right through my YARD!  And my yard is full of TREES!  They even said they wanted to chop down my almond tree!!!!!  When they came to survey my property yesterday, I said to them while hugging my tree, "I'll chain myself to this tree and you'll have to cut through me to get to it!!!!  Screw the electric company!!!!"  I'm very upset, I have to admit. 

I jumped through hoops to keep them from spraying very toxic herbicides around my property, so now I guess they're  going to show me who's boss and just cut everything down.  Power hungry freakin' bullies!  Now keep in mind, that none of my trees and branches are a threat to the electric lines, we make sure of that ourselves. My community has been on a rampage against our electrical coop, and  now they're fighting back.  Apparently war has been declared......

When they get here, I'm going to try being nice but not a pushover.  I'll show them where we've cut our own branches because of the lines and topped off some cypress trees so they know that we're responsible landowners.  If that doesn't work, I'm going to try dissolving into tears (and honestly, it won't be fake because they're hurting my trees and destroying my privacy).   If that doesn't work, I may have my boyfriend  put on a stained torn wife beater tank, unbraid his hair (his hair is to his waist), and come out looking wild and crazed waving around a  blazing loud chain saw.  He should be able to pull that one off easy enough if ya get my drift.

If that doesn't work, I might have no choice but to express genuine anger, cussing and threatening, but chances are I'll look like the kitten in the video.  Acckkk!!! Stressed Out!!!!

Wish me luck!!!!!!!

Later,

Laurie