Thursday, March 17, 2011

That Little Voice Inside My Head

We all have a little voice inside our head, right?  I mean, it's not just me and the people in the asylum?  The little voice inside my head doesn't tell me to run naked down Main Street babbling about being probed by aliens or anything, so that's a good sign.

Actually, that little voice can be annoying as hell because it's always right......and I'm half dense half the time, and ignore it then suffer the consequences.......hence, annoying.   Ok, maybe I'm more annoyed at my "half dense half the time" self than the little voice but I'm in denial about my thick skull which I'm starting to think is about 4" thick with a little bitty peanut brain inside.

For example:  I use an airbrush , airbrush paint is thin, and comes in plastic bottles with flip top lids with a little hole for the paint. I might have a bottle of paint for a couple of years and apparently plastic can get brittle over time and with cold temperatures.

One day after a long  winter of hibernating, I was trying to  squeeze some paint into my airbrush, but there was a dried up paint plug in the little hole, so nothing was coming out.  Now keep in mind that this has happened countless times before. I knew exactly what the problem was and the potential outcome even without the little voice inside my head saying "Excuse me, Laurie. Please remove the paint plug with your paint plug removing tool.  If you continue to squeeze harder and harder to force it out, the bottle will break and paint will cover everything including your artwork.  Do you really want that to happen?" Always so calm and reasonable, that know-it-all voice.

I reply (in my head, not out loud... I'm not crazy!)  "Aw shuddup you, I don't need no stinkin' paint plug removing tool...".

Within five seconds my super human strength breaks the old brittle bottle, and paint explodes violently everywhere......again.  Only this time it's worse than ever before because this was an extra large bottle that was at least half full.......lots and lots of paint.

I sat frozen in shock for several minutes, mouth hanging open, paint dripping off my face and my hands, globs on the ceiling, the wall, my artwork, literally everything within a twelve foot radius.  Finally in a daze, I walked into the house, opened the door, and just stood in the doorway for another frozen moment of shock, while Jamie (my boyfriend) and our friend Zach stared at me horrified.  Zach immediately starts his "Hee..heee..heeeee....heeeeeee".  Jamie at least tries to sympathize between bouts of barely suppressed  laughter but finally he couldn't hold it in any longer, and they both just let loose with uninhibited glee.

Gee I'm so glad my misfortune is so entertaining.......  I got into the shower fully clothed and it took me a good 45 minutes to stop seeing cobalt blue swirling down the drain. 

So will  I just squeeze harder the next time there's a paint plug in my bottle?  Probably.  The lesson seems to have only penetrated the first inch of my four inch thick skull.

The voice inside my head says "Told you so....".   I say "Aw shuddup, you".  Not a fast learner.

Have a beautiful spring day  and Happy St. Patrick's Day!


Wednesday, March 16, 2011

"Healing Energy" for Japan

"Healing Energy" by Primalpainter

"Healing Energy" is digital energy art created from my wall sculpture entitled "Clearing the Chaos".   I created it today in response to feeling helpless.  I held my intention steady on sending healing energy to all those affected by this terrible disaster during the entire creative process.  I don't know that it will help, but it sure doesn't hurt.

I need a break from the news, it's really starting to affect my energy level and mood.  My boyfriend has been watching the news nonstop, and I'm about ready to throw the tv (and maybe him) off the balcony.  I wouldn't do that, though, I like my Wednesday night shows, and he's the cook in the family, can't toss the cook off the balcony.

Desperate for a break from the whole end of the world, worst case scenario mentality, I found a couple of videos to lift the vibe a little.

Is it wrong that I find that hilarious?  Heheeeeheeeeeeeeeee!  I bet that lady's pissed that her son put that video on you tube.

How about another one......

That looks like fun.......It makes me imagine hopping around in a tuxedo at a serious cocktail party. lol

One more short one


Ok, I feel a little better, have a great day!


Sunday, March 13, 2011

Thoughts on the Tsunami

Digital Energy Art by Primalpainter

I know things happens, I know that, but the devastation and pain associated with this earthquake and tsunami are overwhelming.  I've been blocking it all out since I first heard about it until today and that dreaded moment when I sat down and actually looked at the images, listened to and read the stories and worst of all, allowed myself to feel the emotions of so many people grieving and in shock. 

Consequently, all day I've been in a deep depression, complete with overwhelming fatigue and a migraine,  and finally I just let myself cry it out and express that grief  (or at least some of it).  Being on the empathic side has its challenges.  With an individual it's tricky yet do-able to keep their emotions from affecting my mood.  Not so easy when it comes to millions of people feeling similar strong emotions, though. 

The collective consciousness of a large group of people is powerful.  It's like a tsunami of grief and fear, a heavy blanket of darkness.  Conversely, a large group of people feeling positive emotions and sending healing light can also be powerful.  Maybe that's what we should all be doing in whatever way we feel is right.

One  thing that's disturbing about not only this incident, but the whole gamut of crazy weather and earthquakes recently, is that December 21, 2012 is fast approaching.  Now I don't  believe that the world will come to an end on that day, but even if it's completely uneventful, the collective consciousness of billions of people with that expectation and fear could create it's own problems.  I imagine the grocery store shelves being empty and  no gas will be the least of our self-inflicted problems. I also suspect that the crazy weather and natural disasters will continue and maybe even get worse. 

I get a newsletter from a guy named Mitch Battros called Earth Changes, here's the link for his blog.   I don't really know if he's a kook or not, but I like to get a variety of viewpoints, then come to my own conclusions. Anyway, for the past couple of months, his newsletters have reported strong solar flares and other unusual solar activity that have triggered magnetic storms in the atmosphere.  He then follows up with  a warning to expect disruptive weather and earthquakes within the next 48 - 72 hours. I received his newsletter with news of violent solar activity shortly before this earthquake.  His warnings have been right on here lately.

Could there be a connection?  And when that alignment of the planets occurs in December 2012, which will happen based on scientific fact, will this trigger some huge magnetic shift that sets off  violent solar activity that then results in catastrophic events on earth?  We live in interesting times, but we must remember not to live in fear so as not to feed the beast. At the same time, it doesn't hurt to be aware of the possibilities.

Sorry to be a downer, but I yam who I yam and this is who I yam today.  I'll do something lighthearted tomorrow, I think I need it.

In Light,