The intention and energetic imprint from this image is to enhance the ability to give and receive unconditional to ourselves and to others. Two angels, twin flames, are grounded with each other, hand to hand, heart to heart, mind to mind, soul to soul, experiencing the soul connection of pure unconditional love.
I've been thinking about unconditional love ever since I put this image up on my website and facebook page. I created this image from a photo of my daughter Andi that I'd taken a year ago or so. I truly believe I have unconditional love for that girl. She could screw up in big ways and I'd still love her the same..... I might get annoyed at her, I might give her a lecture (my lectures are legendary and widely dreaded, probably because I'm always right, or at least that's what I tell myself), but the level of love wouldn't diminish.
That being said, it's easy to love your child or your pet unconditionally but is it possible to love another adult human being unconditionally who isn't your child? Could unconditional love be unhealthy in certain circumstances?
The definition of unconditional love is "...to love without limits and with no conditions". Hey that sounds awesome until you think about this.... "Sure honey, you can beat the crap out of me and verbally abuse me. I love you unconditionally and will stick with you no matter what." What the...? My ass..... So there has to be limits, there has to be conditions or a person could find themselves abused or a doormat.
So what's the answer.... Is unconditional love just a goal for the spiritual types, the romantics, and the delusional? I'm thinking that maybe something we forget to do is to have unconditional love for ourselves first and foremost.
I want to love myself the way I love Andi. I would always want the best for myself, period. My biggest objectives would be happiness, healthiness and love, no matter which door I choose to open, or which direction my path takes me.
I wouldn't beat myself up when I make mistakes and would forgive myself instead. I'd learn my life lessons, and move forward as a wiser person without dragging along a bunch of baggage full of guilt, regrets and shame. (man, that sh*t is heavy!) I wouldn't subject myself to any abuse or anything that's demeaning, restrictive and controlling. I would put my own health and happiness at the top of the priority list.
If we can do that, it might be possible to love another adult unconditionally, we can respect their path and their timing for self improvement. We can accept them for who they are, we can love them no matter what they do. Their path is their own and has nothing to do with us.
However, since we love ourselves first and foremost, we'll remove ourselves from any situation that feels ugly and dysfunctional and distance ourselves from toxic people. It might take awhile, it'll definitely take courage and lots of it, but anything that triggers stress, fear, depression, or any other negative emotions is not in our best interest unless work is actively being done from both sides. If mutual effort is missing, never to be found, believe in the right to have happiness. Learn the lessons and move on to the next adventure. Trust that things always work out for the best.
What if we can't get out for some reason. Change your thoughts, adjust your flow. Feeling pissed and dangerous in response to an a-hole? Look for that dial in your brain, and turn it down to the "impartial observer" setting, or better yet, the "love" setting... we can adjust our flow and it's almost that easy. Don't get sucked into their vortex by sending them hateful energy darts of judgment and anger. Send thoughts of compassion instead, it'll help them, but most importantly, it will help us.
What if we're being abused in any way? Leave, period. If they try to help themselves (without our micromanaging), come back if it feels good. If it feels bad, adios. There's something better out there for us, trust that.
This is an important lesson I've learned: I can't change anyone, their path is their own and none of my business. Would I want someone to dictate to me that I'm inferior and must change my ways now or else I'm history? Lol, yeah right...
We need to stay focused on our own paths and our own emotional growth and stability, that's really the only thing that we have true control over. Trying to control and change another adult is an exercise in futility. That's not unconditional love, that's a black hole of effort that gets us nowhere but frustrated and codependent. (Beware of codependency, holy sh*t, brutal!)
If their path is one of self destruction, either commit to being there when they fall (because they will) and accept the inevitable without judgment (so easy to say, so hard to do!) or cut them loose and forgive ourselves for doing what we need to do to take care of ourselves.
After all of that thinking, here's my personal definition of Unconditional Love (which is subject to change as I get smarter!): The ability to accept and love ourselves (first and foremost) and others for exactly who we are right now, for who we used to be, and for who we will become, with no judgments, no limits, no conditions, no boundaries, and honor each person's individual path and timing... Happiness, healthiness and love are the main objectives no matter which way they take us.
Ride the wave, go with the flow, have no fear of change. It's a challenge, but a noble goal...baby steps are good.
Until next time....
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Sunday, April 15, 2012
First, I go through my photos, anything from flowers to photos of my wall sculptures, even photos of my reiki jewelry. I don't have anything specific in mind, no goals other than to connect with the light-filled energy of the Source and allow that to guide my choices and my hands. I do set my intention that reiki healing energy will be infused into the image. I'll respond to a photo that has appealing colors, interesting patterns and gives me a little tingle. I have to be "still" on the inside to recognize that tingle. Jamie (the bf) chattering away in the background does NOT help me be still, although I've gotten really good at tuning him out! A useful skill, in my loud dog-filled, Jamie-filled environment.
An iris photo, cropped
Once I've chosen a photo, I open it up in Gimp, a free photo editing program. Without thinking about what I'm doing, I use only my eyes and my hands and start to manipulate it. I'll warp it, invert it, crop it, spin it, shrink it, grow it, apply all kinds of cool filters like fractals, play with the colors.... I can't even remember the names of the filters I use, which tells you how turned off my left brain is from the process. It's an ingrained thing, kind of like how it is when you type really fast without having to read and think about the words. I don't really think any thoughts during the process, just kind of empty-headed (no cracks!).
Don't quite remember how I got here!
At some point, my eyes make a switch from responding to overall composition and color, to "seeing" angels or figures in the patterns. I assume it's a third eye, intuitive kind of seeing, which might explain why so many of my images are purple, the color of the sixth chakra. They want me to see them, they want me to coax them out, I can feel a different kind of energy start to flow. This energy feels like a very fine, fast vibration or tingle that has an excitement to it, an anticipation. It feels to me like it's centered at the top of my head and even above it. I'll zero in on those areas where I "see", for example, an angel, and start to play with that area. Again I'll go with warping, smudging, airbrushing, swirling, pulling the image into whatever shape it wants to be.
Not quite sure how I got here either...
oooo, pretty! but not finished yet....
So who are these angels? Do they have names? Could I connect with any one specific angel, say Archangel Michael, and channel that specific energy? Hmm, good questions. I'm not altogether sure that I'm ready to control the process to the extent of connecting with specific light beings and angels, the timing isn't right . Maybe at some point in time I'll try it, but for now I like just letting it flow the way it wants to with minimal interference on my part.
As far as naming the angels, I believe there are an infinite number of angels and light beings working on our behalf. They don't require names, or any ego driven recognition. They're just happy to help, and I'm happy I can pass that energy along.
I know a couple of religious people who are uncomfortable with what I do. I've tried to explain that the energy I'm connecting with is from the Source, or God, and is all about love and healing, but I guess a fear of the unknown is too ingrained One older lady told me that since I'm not a Christian, then what I'm doing was coming from the devil. What???? No!!
I was raised a Christian, but since I've been an adult, I don't align myself with any one religion. All the religions are ok by me, and they all share a common belief, the belief in a Higher Power. I've just decided to bypass the man-made religious dogma associated with religion and go straight to the Source, the unifying factor that connects us all to each other without separatism.
With Love and Light,
Thursday, March 8, 2012
"Through the Mist" by Primal Painter
This is my first attempt at interpreting an aura/chakra connection and using it to strengthen and illuminate the murky areas of the aura that need healing.
Here's the necklace I made from a miniature print of this image.. I made two, I thought that would hold me for awhile, but they've both sold.
I was thinking about how my chakras always need more work. I can get them balanced and open......for awhile.........and then there are more blockages and damage that need undone, unraveled.
It makes me wonder, do you suppose that the reason for this ongoing work is that there are many layers to our issues that could go back lifetimes? Or could it be, (and this is an interesting thought) that the chakras are only as healthy as the aura?
Maybe the aura is the key to the chakras, and the chakras are key to the meridians in the body, and the meridians are key to the body. But we're only as healthy as our auras...hmmm. It would make sense. I mean, when we experience an emotional wounding of some kind, it seems like that would possibly put a hole or rip in the aura. The aura becomes disorganized in that spot, dark, ugly, unhealthy and then the resonating chakra picks up that dark energy and funnels it into the body. A person could work on their chakras forever, but they would still get gunked up again because the aura hasn't been healed.
I think we need to heal and strengthen our auras, which is especially important during this time of dramatic solar activity.. How to do that? I'll have to think on that one awhile, but allowing the energy and intentions of "Through the Mist" could help. I believe that setting an intention is a great start. "My aura is strong, healthy, intact, clear and easily transmutes outside energetic and emotional influences into positive energy for myself, for others, and the planet."
You've probably heard that we're being hit right now by magnetic storms generated by intense solar flares.
I've mentioned several times about my theory that the solar flares, coronal masses and magnetic storms are affecting not just the planet, but also us piddley widdle hoomans, although news reports claim that there's no effect on humans....whatever!!!
I personally have been having anxiety, a sense of urgency, headaches, the sense that time is moving at warp speed, difficulties with communication (losing my words and train of thought), ringing in the ears, almost like morse code, and here in the last several weeks, hot flashes which lately have been intense and hourly. I assumed the hot flashes were a direct a result of menopause, but today I stumbled across this article that describes how I've been feeling lately and lo and behold, hot flashes are a symptom of the solar flares! Ha! Wow, that's just wild. That would explain why my boyfriend has also been having hot flashes. I just thought he was so in-tune with me that he was having sympathy hot flashes. lol
My hot flashes have been so intense at times, that my face has blistered and looks windburned or like I have heat rash. We're in for some major magnetic and energetic bombardments here in the next three days, so all you sensitives out there, hang on. I think we can use this intense energy to our advantage to burn out all the old cellular debris that we've been carrying around for lifetimes. Set your intentions but add a little disclaimer "with the least amount of discomfort possible"! This article really clarified to me all of the things I've been theorizing about for quite awhile now. I don't know how scientific it is, but it feels true.
Here's a little excerpt from the article, but if you're interested in this phenomenon and want to read the whole article, go here: http://www.carliniinstitute.com/how_recent_solar_flares_are_affecting_us Heather also has many other resonating articles on her website
How Recent Solar Flares Are Affecting Humans©Heather Carlini 2010, 2011, 2012
Solar flares affect the Central Nervous System (stomach lining), all brain activity (including equilibrium), along with human behaviour and all psycho-physiological (mental-emotional-physical) response. Solar flares can cause us to be nervous, anxiousness, worrisome, jittery, dizzy, shaky, irritable, lethargic, exhausted, have short term memory problems and heart palpitations, feel nauseous, queasy, and to have prolonged head pressure and headaches.
The solar flares and photon waves are changing the fabric of our physical reality as they have a powerful effect on our physical cellular level, causing our cellular memories to awaken and clear. We often experience this as the body heating up in the form of “hot flashes.” Our lower emotions are low frequency energy stored in our cells from past experiences and traumas that we have encountered and never processed —so they become stored as cellular memories. Photon energy is a much higher frequency energy that pulls up the lower emotional frequency so it can calibrate to the higher frequency.... thus we find ourselves releasing these lower emotions of sadness and grief without knowing why.
This morning, Jamie, my boyfriend, woke up with all of these symptoms. I actually feel a little buzzy, in a pretty good mood, and my hot flashes are decreasing in intensity and frequency. I've been working on setting my intentions, and I doubt if he's been doing that. I think it would be wise for us all to pay attention to how we're feeling and start doing something to integrate and transmute these energies.
Hang on, this year could be a bumpy ride....but exciting!
Until next time,
PS: Solar activity is scientifically proven to be connected to earthquakes, volcanoes, extreme weather, tornadoes..... so it might not hurt to set our intentions to protect our homes, families and the planet from the effects of extreme weather.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
This image is a brief foray into the reds. oranges and fuchsias of the lower chakras. The rendering of the angels was pure energy art. It seemed like they pulled themselves into existence using my hands as tools.. You might have to look closely to find them, there are four altogether plus the written words Love, Heal, Protect, Forgive, and Believe along with the reiki symbol choku-rei which amplifies the energy. The intention for this print is to be open and attuned to the healing energy of angels and Christ Consciousness.
Well, it's a miracle, here I am at my much neglected blog. (blog, such a weird word......blaaaaawwwggg) I don't know about other people, but I've been having a weird 2012 so far. Things feel different, intense and ungrounded, some kind of urgency co-mingled with a generalized anxiety. Hmmm, what could it be, what could it beeee....... Whoremoans? Solar Flares affecting the earths magnetic fields and thus affecting us on an energetic level?
You know, I'm really starting to think that the changes in the solar system with the sun being pivotal are sending some highly charged energy waves to the earth, and we can either sink or swim. At first, I thought the objective would be to fight that energy, creating shields to protect myself from it. Below is an energy art print called "Solar Flares" that I created when I was in that particular mode of thinking.
I ordered prints of this one, even have it in draft form on Etsy, but still haven't listed it. It just doesn't make me feel uplifted, it feels more like an attack. Yeah I'm not into it. I don't think it's any coincidence that the yellow third chakra in this image is off center, (so is the throat)....and the yellow colors are muddy. I resist looking at the lack of yellow in my art which tells me that I probably have some third chakra issues.
Third chakra - self identity, intellect, thought, bright yellow. If I had to guess, I'd say that I'm thinking too much about the process of energy work, exerting too much control when in fact I need to flow with the process and connect with the Source by being a pure vessel, a tool, a channel. It's all about releasing that insidious need to control, getting myself out of the way and instead, trusting, allowing, and flowing.
Anyway, right now I'm more inclined to think that these intense solar energy waves could be utilized and integrated into our own energy fields and used as tools to evolve and enhance our energetic connections. Maybe it's not something to fight against at all, maybe these waves are triggers for spiritual and energetic growth, openings, opportunities.
As synchronicity would have it, I was contacted by Debbi, owner of Ascended Earth on Etsy to see if I wanted to trade my print "Twin Souls" with one of her crystal essences. I got all goosebumpy and buzzy which is a clear cut sign that this is an awesome idea!!
She chose "Divine Blueprint" for me. Click the link to read the whole description. Here's a small excerpt:
To create this ASCENSION ASSISTING Divine Blueprint vibrational essence, the energy of over 100 high frequency crystals was alchemically transferred into purified water, with the help of the Sun, Archangels Raphael and Michael, St. Germain, Ascended Master Hilarion, the Nature Spirits, Elementals, and Devas.
I love what she does and who she is. She's a kindred spirit for sure. I got my essence two days ago and immediately took four drops. I instantly felt buzzed and was all zoom zoom Zoom!! Haha..... Two days later, I feel awesome! I take the essence with intention, which I believe enhances the effects. "My intention is to be open to and integrate with the highest vibrations possible of this essence for the highest good of all".
I made an energy art print yesterday called "Heaven" during a time when I felt high as a kite on essence energy.
I love looking at this one, it's so... I don't know, soft and gentle, kind, sweet, safe, wholesome, love, light, heaven, paradise. It's how I imagine Christ Consciousness. I might even change the name. On the angels arms are the handwritten words Love, Heal, Protect and Guide. Good vibes, good vibes......
I've been making some new necklaces that are creating some buzz here in my little circle. I've sold a few of them right off my coffee table. And people are coming back wanting another one for a friend or two. They really do have a fascinating flash and energy to them that seem to attract attention and give a little lift.
I'm gearing up to get my newest necklace design up, which is chakra oriented. It's actually double sided, with a print and magnifying glass dome on both sides. Sandwiched between the domes is a genuine copper disk. The chain and the hook clasp are also genuine copper. Copper is a semi-precious metal and is considered to be a good transmitter of energy.
They feel incredible when you hold them in your hand. They fit perfectly, are smooth and calming, retain heat like crazy, and emit a noticeable vibration. I think they make for a good energy healing tool especially when used in conjunction with your own stated intentions. If my lesson is the same as yours, don't be too specific in your intention, just be open to the positive benefits it might provide trusting your higher self to do what's in your best interest. Here's a sneak peak.....
Well I'm off, have a great one!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
This is my latest orb interpretation...worlds within worlds. I'm lovin' on those colors. I made this one into a necklace, too which looks awesome:
Well, the world is a freakin' mirror,.a MIRROR I tell ya! Good Gawd, if only what I was seeing was purr-dy. But nooooo, what's getting reflected back at me is fugly as all get-out!!!! To be fair, I can balance that with the times that what gets reflected is all good. That happens alot, I'm just being a drama queen, Miss Tied Up in Knots with a bad case of whoremoans..
It's just so much easier to feel self-righteous rage at the other person's shortcomings. But I tell you what, that feeling of explosive rage sucks the big wang. (To self: that sounds kind of vulgar when I see it in writing, haha, oops)
The Universe is providing me with mirrors so that I might recognize that the issues that drive me insane in someone else are a reflection of issues that exist in me.. I have to say, that sucks.....
These mirrors are showing me that I still have some unresolved anger and resentment at a variety of experiences. I think 2012 is a time for releasing all that old crapola, learning the lessons from our experiences, getting to the root and yanking that baby out once and for all.
Easier said than done, as usual. I mean, the root could go back to last week, childhood, the womb, or a previous life, who knows. It might be like one of those tap roots on passion flower vines that go so deep and all over the place that you'll never get it out unless you excavate the whole area. Wow, that would be a real drag...
It seems to me that creating energy art for the past eight months, has triggered some much needed healing and balancing within me, but now I need to get out of all that upper chakra blues and purples I've been indulging in and get back into the lower chakras, the reds, oranges, and yellows. (Wailing) Ick, I don't wannaaaaa................... But I suppose it's for the best, so here goes, a depiction of the problem I'm having.
So apparently I'm having heart chakra issues as indicated by all the green. But why? The red around the perimeter of the orb looks like a barrier between the light of an open chakra and the flowing movement around it. First chakra - feelings of survival, feelings of being safe. Heart chakra - giving and receiving love......that would make sense. I don't feel safe in a certain situation, trust has been compromised and it's blocking the flow of the heart chakra. Fortunately there's an angel to help out and lead the way to understanding and healing. Enough dilly dallying, Angel, let's get a move on.... What? What's that? I have to do some introspection? Some lesson learning? Some (shudder) forgiveness? And the dreaded, "letting go of the need to control"? Crap.....
I embedded the reiki symbol choku-rei in this image to amp up the healing energy, and I also wrote the words love, heal, forgive, and guide inside the orb as well. They're hidden in the image pretty well. A person would have to look really close to find them, but I actually like that idea. I think it might connect the viewer to the energy of the image on a deeper, more energetic level. (I love my fancy new tablet and pen, by the way..hehee)
Well, I'm off to ponder and introspect, ugh. Wouldn't it be nice to just float around in the blues and purples forevah and pretend like those lower chakras don't matter? That would be awesome!
Until the next episode of Miss Tied Up in Knots, have a good one.
Monday, January 2, 2012
This energy art image was inspired by a video that my brother sent to me awhile back that shows an undeniable orb in it. He has a night vision camera out in his woods to catch cool videos of the deer, and he's got two different videos with orbs in them.
In the one with the deer, notice how the deer actually seems to sense or even see the orb as it zooms by. It's fast (top center) so you have to look quickly. Anyway, I think I'm going to do a series of energy art orb interpretations, the one above is my first.
Oh yeah, Happy New Year!! It's the big one, 2012! What's going to happen this year, I wonder? I don't know, hopefully nothing too catastrophic environmentally. I feel that this could be a year for an expansion in consciousness for lots of people. Embracing a more connected and spiritual attitude by releasing some negative and self-centered ways of thinking would be an awesome way to spend 2012!
I was watching tv yesterday, (on my new big screen tv that my awesome daughter Andi and her boyfriend Dustin bought us for Christmas...what the?!!! seriously?!!!!! Crazy girl!!) Anyway, I can't remember what channel it was, but all day long the movie 2012 was playing, over and over again.
I don't know if you've seen that movie, but it's like an epic fear mongering kind of movie. It's a cool movie, don't get me wrong, especially impressive on a big screen tv, but really? Day one of 2012 the studio execs said "Oh let's start the year off with some hardcore brainwashing of DREAD".
It's all possible I suppose, if you want to believe in the worst outcome possible. It's a fact that the sun is in an active period of solar flares and unrest, peaking in 2013, and the magnetic storms from these flares seem to trigger crazy weather and earthquakes. It's also a fact, that on December 21, 2012, the planets will be in a rare alignment that could affect the the magnetism of the north and south poles, triggering a strong gravitational pull that could affect the continental plates.
I'm not skeered!!!! I do plan on having some supplies on hand, just in case. So will everyone else, though, and with the widespread anticipation of this date, we could actually trigger our own disasters without anything even happening!! It's a crazy time to be alive!! Would you believe that December 21, 2012 is the 28th anniversary of when I was raped and attacked? How weird is that.....
Anyway, blah blah blah...... I've been thinking really hard about my artwork and how I want to spread some love, light, and healing energy into the world through the images. I see myself as a Lightworker in this aspect, and I also see all the people who buy my artwork as Lightworkers. As a matter of fact, I see everyone as Lightworkers.....we all play our part in spreading our intentions and energy into the world, good or bad. Hopefully, we can reach the point where we focus on the good.
I was reading about Lightworkers, and came across this website. I know I'm not really supposed to copy and paste a bunch of paragraphs from someone else's words, but this is just so right on, I had to do it....
Lightworkers are souls who carry the strong inner desire to spread Light – knowledge, freedom and self-love – on earth. They sense this as their mission. They are often attracted to spirituality and to therapeutic work of some kind.
Psychological characteristics of lightworkers:
From early on in their life, they feel they are different. More often than not they feel isolated from others, lonely and misunderstood. They will often become individualists who will have to find their own unique ways in life.
They have trouble feeling at home within traditional jobs and/or organization structures. Lightworkers are naturally anti-authoritarian which means that they naturally resist decisions or values based solely on power or hierarchy. This anti-authoritarian trait is present even if they seem timid and shy. It is connected to the very essence of their mission here on earth.
Lightworkers feel drawn to helping people as a therapist or as a teacher. They may be psychologists, healers, teachers, nurses, etc. Even if their profession is not about helping people in a direct manner, the intent to contribute to the higher good of humanity is clearly present.
Their vision of life is colored by a spiritual sense of how all things are related together. They consciously or subconsciously carry memories within them of non-earthly spheres of light. They may occasionally feel homesick for these spheres and feel like a stranger on earth.
They deeply honor and respect life which often manifests as a fondness for animals and a concern for the environment. The destruction of parts of the animal and vegetable kingdoms on earth by human doing invokes deep feelings of loss and grief in them.
They are kind-hearted, sensitive and empathic. They may have trouble dealing with aggressive behavior and they generally experience difficulties in standing up for themselves. They can be dreamy, naive or highly idealistic, as well as insufficiently grounded, i.e. down-to-earth. Because they easily pick up negative feelings and moods of people around them, it is important for them to spend time alone on a regular basis. This enables them to distinguish between their own feelings and those of others. They need solitary time to touch base with themselves and with mother earth.
They have lived many lives on earth in which they were deeply involved with spirituality and/or religion. They were present in overwhelming numbers in the old religious orders of your past as monks, nuns, hermits, psychics, witches, shamans, priests, priestesses, etc. They were the ones providing a bridge between the visible and the invisible, between the daily context of earth life and the mysterious realms of the afterlife, realms of God and the spirits of good and evil. For fulfilling this role, they were often rejected and persecuted. Many of you were sentenced to the stake for the gifts you possessed. The traumas of persecution left deep traces within your soul’s memory. This may presently manifest as a fear of being fully grounded, i.e. a fear to be really present, because you remember being brutally attacked for who you were.
This is me!!! And it's quite possibly many or even most of the people I've come to know in the past year through this blog, facebook and Etsy! How cool is that?!!! I have big plans, big plans for my energy art this year. Andi also got me one of those tablet things with a pen so I can actually draw within my images without using the clumsy old mouse.
I swear, when I opened that package on Christmas and saw what it was, I got the strongest surge of goosebumps ever! I couldn't even talk for about 10 minutes because of the lump in my throat (don't look at me, I'm going to cry!). I got a brief little vision of what I would accomplish this year, and the gratitude and excitement was overwhelming. I'm going to make a difference! This is what I'm supposed to be doing! And with this pen, I can get detailed so that huge images on say, canvas, will look awesome. I can also embed the reiki symbol choku-rei into my artwork to amp up the energy. I can hide words that give off good vibes in the designs. Endless possibilities for Lightwork. Thank you, Andi. I sure do love you!!!
Well I hope everyone has the best year ever!
With Love and Light,
Monday, November 14, 2011
"Alignment" by Primal Painter
Wow....what a strange weekend this has been. Friday was 11-11-11, that was the culprit! According to the website Earth-Keepers.com, Arkansas was the site for a big crystal activation with Eureka Springs (my town) being at the north apex of a triangular vortex that covers about 150 square miles or so. Whether or not all this true, I don't know, but I like knowing about things like this, just in case!
What I knew for sure, though, is that the energy of the collective consciousness would be very high on this date if for no other reason than the sheer numbers of people focusing on an energetic activation and setting intentions for a higher purpose. That alone was worth acknowledging and participating in.
So I went to Magnetic Spring (a power place with noticeably high vibes) here in Eureka at 11:11 a.m. on 11-11-11 to do a little meditating, to release some old crapola and to set my intentions for a higher vibe of being. There were about 10 other people doing the same thing. Eureka is a big drumming town, so someone started to bang a drum and chant, but fortunately stopped after a minute or so because it very obviously was not resonating with the high, fine energy buzz..
I found a nice spot in the sun, had a bag of recently found crystals between my legs (at the root chakra) and experienced about 30 minutes of major goosebumps and emotional surges. It was exciting! I set my intention to release all the old emotions and experiences that no longer serve a higher purpose. Anger, fear, resentment........all that stuff. Then I set my intention that my life purpose would be crystalline clear and that everything I think, say and do would be for the highest good of all.
I don't know what other people felt, but afterwards, there was no "TA DA!!! I"m healed!!!!" moment. I felt strangely disconnected for the rest of the day. Super tired and just kind of blank. On Saturday, I woke up pissed. All these old scenarios of anger and resentment kept running through my head like never-ending reruns and I was feeling it all. (Poor Jamie, my boyfriend..lol) Needless to say, it sucked and I was a first class bee-yotch!!!
Finally, I decided to make some energy art with the intention of releasing all this crapola. This is what I came up with, and thankfully, it worked. (I still have to work on it some). By 4:00 or so, I was feeling somewhat normal again.
On Sunday, I woke up tied up in knots with some kind of generalized anxiety. Nothing specific, but just a fear-based, strange "I'm skeeered" feeling This also sucked! What the.....?!! Where's my "TA DA" moment? So I made another energy art image for releasing fear and anxiety. This is what I came up with.....
I thought it was interesting that this image is full of bubbles, because that's what this whole weekend felt like....bubbles of stuff bursting through the surface. All upper chakra colors, though, which I thought was unusual. It seems like it would have been lower chakra colors. Strangely, after I made this, I felt some relief from the fear and anxiety, but I started feeling pissed again, with a whole new set of memories! Crap!!! Layers upon layers upon layers of shizola stored up for God knows how long.....lifetimes, maybe.
I don't know what I think I'm doing dragging all this crap around with me for all these lifetimes. (In a snarky voice) "Oh, I have to pack my bags with this sh*tty experience and this crappy emotion that nobody even remembers except me and drag them around forevah....." Stupid!!!!!
Today I feel better, but still no "TA DA" moment, but it's still early. Maybe it takes a while to integrate and kick in. My hands have been feeling really hot, they're usually cold, so maybe that's an indication. By the way, my daughter and I went crystal hunting a week or so ago, found a bunch of beautiful little crystals, and now they feel really strong , very buzzy. But that's another story.....a Celestine Prophecy kind of story! I plan on using some of these crystals in some future wall sculptures.
Anyway, just thought I'd share my strange experiences. Anybody else feel weird stuff this weekend or is it just me?
Have a good one!